If you have ever met me, you will know that i am a very energetic and loud person. I can be annoying as hell sometimes. But who isn't!I am also a very honest person. If you want the truth I will give it straight out.. I have been judged this year because of it. I didn't use to be like this, but after all the bullying and the people talking crap behind my back, i decided I was finally going to stick up for myself.. you think i cant hear you. Im not your bitch. Don't worry this isn't gonna be one of those feelings blogs. But im sick an tired of people pretending that they know how I feel or that i don't care that you bail on me for another person. I actually have feelings. Behind all of the makeup and me telling you its OK for hooking up with the guy i like right in front of me! Ya I was lying! But, no one could really care. No one could care that maybe I hate that my parents dont understand me and have run away once or twice... OK more then that. To make that better, my parents didn't even notice and still don't know. My ex best friend still uses me today, treats me like crap and never pays me back. I just go with it because I feel important. I was physically and mentally depressed and my friends let me fall in the dirt and kicked it in my eyes. But I don't care anymore. I just wish that I didn't have to crawl out myself. There is more to me then a blonde hair and blue eyed cheerleader... im more then that.
"You can search throughout the entire universe for someone who is more deserving of your love and affection than you are yourself, and that person is not to be found anywhere. You yourself, as much as anybody in the entire universe deserve your love and affection."
- The Buddha
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